Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Silly People

Hello Reader,

At the end of the ridge is a bird of prey.  A giant graceful predator.  It leaves my mouth dry with awe as it dives, hovers and elegantly cores a thermal over my head.  I let my hands sit limply in the handles and do not bother to attempt to take any tragically inadequate photos.  It isn't worth the precious seconds needed to glance away.

Now the sun begins to set and as it does, the mountains respond by turning to gold. There are no words to describe flying in autumn.  Every year I am taken off guard and left fumbling for words.  I roll them around like marbles in my mouth, feebly trying to show what I see.    

Temperatures cool rapidly with the sun's retreat.  My open grin has let in the chilly wind and left me with chattering teeth. Sunset really is nearly here and in preparation, I take a lazy glide out to the front but I turn back, like I always do, to look at these silly people dangling about blue skies and laugh at all of us. 

What a funny thing it is to be a human.


Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Stuck

Every time I move to step forward, I remember the gum stuck to my shoe.  It's all melted and eky and full of little bitty rocks and things so I don't want to touch it.  I have looked around for a nearby stick or something like a stick to unstick me...  but no dice.

And it's not really something I can ask a passing person for assistance with...Putting my clean art brush down, again, I twirl a journal bursting with white blank pages in my hands. 

While stuck this last month (plus), for distraction from my immobility, I am watching everyone, everything, including me.  I watch it all. My inner six year old loves this game; I re-analyze prior conversations, comparing them to current actions and then making short term predictions. 

And then there is my best friend.  No matter how many times I think I understand him, I think I have figured him out - I am startled again by his seemingly unshakable and limitless capacity.   

Take this example; The ever present expanding elephant.  This thing has dominated many aspects of our lives and, in this last year, increasingly intrudes on my time and 'our' time, both of which I am always in short supply of and jealous of sharing.  I watch me slowly become resentful. I am tired of talking about it, helping it, feeding it; I am sick of watching over it.  Now at three years -for me this is three years- Yes, I still go through the motions, but I offer only short explanations and abrupt replies.... And even though I chide myself and place my tongue literally between my teeth to prevent my inner monologue from verbalizing... I am still thinking impatient thoughts.

Sigh.

But not him.  I am watching.  How he handles it! Aptly, deftly, thoughtfully and maturely  -even when exasperated!

So.... to make up for the inadequacy that is my own maturity level, I did not make healthy, low carb meals. I made him his beloved waffles on Sunday, homemade vanilla blueberry pancakes on Monday and a cheesy alfredo pasta for dinner last night (although I did add broccoli).

Because that is what relationships are all about.  Sometimes you are the rock star and sometimes you are the entourage....

In my case, sometimes is often.  But that's ok, I have a lifetime back stage pass.

Also if you happen to see a stick nearby, could you kick it over?  This paint/ writing/ drawing block has lasted long enough.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Tiny Inspirations (Original Work)


Dreamscape
9 1/4" X 5 1/2"
(Gouache, Watercolor Paper)


Sisters
8 1/2" X 11"
(Gouache, Watercolor Paper)

Inhale
5 1/2" X 4"
(Gouache, Watercolor Paper)

Riding the Bubble
5" X 2 1/2"
(Gouache, Watercolor Paper)