Couple of weeks ago, I took a Friday off work to take care of some things... I woke up to the day smiling and laughing to myself - I was literally giddy with happiness.
Later, driving in the car, I thought about how perfectly the early sun lit up the morning, I wondered in awe about the infinitesimal grace of a flock of birds moving as one... I was ecstatic with life. All because I was doing something different for the day.
Now that morning gnaws on my cheeks, looking out of me ever since; I am hankering for that rush, that high, that feeling of excitement -that wish that today will be different then yesterday. Today will be interesting, today will give me something new.
And that just isn't true. Every day is quite similar to the one before. Which I should clarify, I have a pretty awesome life, I just need a little variety... Outside of a trip for Christmas and another in March; we haven't gone anywhere in a while. I know we ate up all of our vacation time for those trips but we haven't made a weekend escape either. Weekends are eaten up by club stuff.
Yesterday I woke up and decided I would find something different all day. So as I drove to work in glaring yellow smog cloaking the mountains -I took a Different EXIT!
Snickering at myself, I then BOUGHT coffee. Which was highly unnecessary. I already had coffee. But there was a coffee stand at this exit I had never seen before and they were selling a cup of Joe for a buck fifty and I had a buck fifty on me.
I took a break around 10am and I walked through the parking lot to this little tiny island of sorta green grass. I laid down on it and watched the sun filter through the leaves. I thought about how the touch of sunlight felt just like a friend's arm around my shoulders and I leaned into it.
I know most people only think of people as people but I think of everything as people and I am really not interested at all that that thought process is not a shared one.
Later I was flying, which is obviously awesome, and when I got up high, and looked around, above the traffic and smog, I remembered that the lack of green is countered by jutting mountain tops and fiery sunsets. I flew around and passed the pool on my way back. I looked at the little kids all swimming below and thought.... I should land here instead of there...
There may not be a ride back I considered.... And this thought had me kicking my feet in my swing and laughing out loud, who cares! It will be a long walk but the heat is gone and the field is different and why not!
My set up was easy, my flare was clean and kids came running and shouted "Hey!!!" ;)
I packed up quickly and started my walk back. This is a very very nice neighborhood. And while me and my giant pack caused a couple of cars to slow down, the only stare I noticed was from a puzzled deer on the other side of a fence. I waved. It chewed.
Ten minutes in, my friend rescued me. She took me back and I ran home to get my little dog. In the spirit of the day, I let her off leash and watched her run and run and then... SHE... CAME... BACK!
Pause of awe.....
Later, driving in the car, I thought about how perfectly the early sun lit up the morning, I wondered in awe about the infinitesimal grace of a flock of birds moving as one... I was ecstatic with life. All because I was doing something different for the day.
Now that morning gnaws on my cheeks, looking out of me ever since; I am hankering for that rush, that high, that feeling of excitement -that wish that today will be different then yesterday. Today will be interesting, today will give me something new.
And that just isn't true. Every day is quite similar to the one before. Which I should clarify, I have a pretty awesome life, I just need a little variety... Outside of a trip for Christmas and another in March; we haven't gone anywhere in a while. I know we ate up all of our vacation time for those trips but we haven't made a weekend escape either. Weekends are eaten up by club stuff.
Yesterday I woke up and decided I would find something different all day. So as I drove to work in glaring yellow smog cloaking the mountains -I took a Different EXIT!
Snickering at myself, I then BOUGHT coffee. Which was highly unnecessary. I already had coffee. But there was a coffee stand at this exit I had never seen before and they were selling a cup of Joe for a buck fifty and I had a buck fifty on me.
I took a break around 10am and I walked through the parking lot to this little tiny island of sorta green grass. I laid down on it and watched the sun filter through the leaves. I thought about how the touch of sunlight felt just like a friend's arm around my shoulders and I leaned into it.
I know most people only think of people as people but I think of everything as people and I am really not interested at all that that thought process is not a shared one.
Later I was flying, which is obviously awesome, and when I got up high, and looked around, above the traffic and smog, I remembered that the lack of green is countered by jutting mountain tops and fiery sunsets. I flew around and passed the pool on my way back. I looked at the little kids all swimming below and thought.... I should land here instead of there...
There may not be a ride back I considered.... And this thought had me kicking my feet in my swing and laughing out loud, who cares! It will be a long walk but the heat is gone and the field is different and why not!
My set up was easy, my flare was clean and kids came running and shouted "Hey!!!" ;)
I packed up quickly and started my walk back. This is a very very nice neighborhood. And while me and my giant pack caused a couple of cars to slow down, the only stare I noticed was from a puzzled deer on the other side of a fence. I waved. It chewed.
Ten minutes in, my friend rescued me. She took me back and I ran home to get my little dog. In the spirit of the day, I let her off leash and watched her run and run and then... SHE... CAME... BACK!
Pause of awe.....
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